i love life. well, i can say that today anyway. i'll go further to say that, for the most part, i've loved this week (minus the melt down).

i went to the beach with THE GUYS... they are great and wonderful - andy, johnny, casey, canberry(sp?), samir, etc... and of course - sarah!!! it was the most fun i've had ever. we sat around and played songs and sang most of the night. it was perfect. round two is coming up thursday - i'm ready.

God works in mysterious ways. I love the way He makes His will for my life happen. I feel like Paul on his second missionary journey, when he didn't know where to go and God kept telling him no to every place he thought he should go. God has just closed some doors, and opened some others that i'm so excited about!!

Emily Prince is a woman of God - if you go to MC and don't know - you should get to know her. I'm learning, slowly, to be a woman of God.(Casey, that does not mean i need to make cookies all the time.) Hopefully God will give me courage and strength to do that.

i learned about leadership all weekend. i feel led and leadable.

matt christenot and all the guys from the fbc hattiesburg band played for leadership training conference this week - it felt like home.

im going to lake forest ranch to work this summer - and im sooo excited about it!! tons of mc students will be with me - so we'll have good times. im nervous about the work i'll be doing, but i know God will bless my life through it and give me strength to make it do the end.

so a little story for yall - jenny and i went to keifers to eat dinner and afterwards jen wanted ice cream. fair enough - well i wanted cold stone- b/c i'd never had it - so we drove to madison for ice cream. sad. i know - but it was an adventure. yeah - top that for a saturday night at mc.

crawfish, bowling, and good music - i couldn't ask for a better night.

jane invited me to go eat with her family tonight out in good ole canton, ms. i thought it through on my three mile journey through clinton and decided - yeah - i wanna go. so i went. we jump into the car and off we go. about 45 min later we arrive at this small house/cabin thing - deer camp- and a calmness sets in. reality goes away. all is at rest. we are at peace. we sit in some chairs outiside, under the stars, eat tons of crawfish, and have a good time. so, that would've been enough and made my whole day BUT it got better. braden land was playing in clinton, and jane and i went to hear him. we had so much fun. just waching such talented musicians made my happy. good job guys. so, jane gets a phone call - and we're at indian lanes. good night.

ok - so now for the deeper stuff. peace. peace. i'm trying to think of where to begin this thought in my head and how to get it on to the screen. nothing is working. my mind goes blank. i think thats part of peace. or well, the only thing on my mind is God. He is peace. In my time with God today I was reading one of those devotional book thingys - and it was about God forgiven the womens sins. i think its in luke?? anyway - the devotion said that not only did she recieve forgivness for her sins, but that she was free from sin and could live in peace. so, being free from sin is peace. makes sense. being near/closer to God brings us peace. hm.... peace its comforting. i like to think about peace.

and faith. every passage i've read lately is about faith. hm.. i know there is a lot of faith talk in that book - but its good stuff.

i'm sure i should write more- but i'm so sleepy i can not keep my eyes open to type.

crawfish, bowling, and good music - i couldn't ask for a better night.

jane invited me to go eat with her family tonight out in good ole canton, ms. i thought it through on my three mile journey through clinton and decided - yeah - i wanna go. so i went. we jump into the car and off we go. about 45 min later we arrive at this small house/cabin thing - deer camp- and a calmness sets in. reality goes away. all is at rest. we are at peace. we sit in some chairs outiside, under the stars, eat tons of crawfish, and have a good time. so, that would've been enough and made my whole day BUT it got better. braden land was playing in clinton, and jane and i went to hear him. we had so much fun. just waching such talented musicians made my happy. good job guys. so, jane gets a phone call - and we're at indian lanes. good night.

ok - so now for the deeper stuff. peace. peace. i'm trying to think of where to begin this thought in my head and how to get it on to the screen. nothing is working. my mind goes blank. i think thats part of peace. or well, the only thing on my mind is God. He is peace. In my time with God today I was reading one of those devotional book thingys - and it was about God forgiven the womens sins. i think its in luke?? anyway - the devotion said that not only did she recieve forgivness for her sins, but that she was free from sin and could live in peace. so, being free from sin is peace. makes sense. being near/closer to God brings us peace. hm.... peace its comforting. i like to think about peace.

and faith. every passage i've read lately is about faith. hm.. i know there is a lot of faith talk in that book - but its good stuff.

i'm sure i should write more- but i'm so sleepy i can not keep my eyes open to type.

alright, i'll update. i have lots on mind and its all random (so, this is my warning to you....)

ahh! Life! I have such a confused view on it right now. i love it! i love that i am finally living in a way that will bring honor to God's name- and that makes him proud. i love that God lets me just be his - and ponder on that for a minute - being His - be quiet and think about Him. Its amazing, and sets my soul at ease just typing it. hm.. good stuff - moving on. and then theres that whole past thing. that haunts us, and never leaves, and etc... uh! i hate that part.

i'm hattiesburg right now - and i just watched elizabethtown - good movie. someone told me it was a ripoff of garden state. and while i can see that being true - its not. or maybe it is but i like them both a lot and they seem different to me. anyway, the movie touched the "deep nerve". you know - the one that makes you think. the one that makes you post on your xanga. yeah - i hit that nerve tonight.  i also hit the "past" nerve. oh you know that one - im not even going there.

this whole valentines day thing is enough to kill me.  it is singles awareness day - and im ok being single, which makes this whole situation ironic.  don't feel too bad for me- i got valentines presents, b/c my parents rock!!! but, hm... i want it to come and go and act as if it was never here. however, im hoping God will be valentine- and bring me lots of flowers and .. sunshine! maybe, some heat b/c im freezing! but, he gives me his LOVE everyday... in my friends, in His breeze, in the sky.. so i have everyday as valentines day - lucky me!